Thursday, January 7, 2010

ThE mOnDaY pRoJeCt PaRt DeUx

Okay....here's the story....No, MY story! Image and video hosting by TinyPic

Actually I will spare you the gory details, most of them found elsewhere here in previous posts....but it boils down to the nitty gritty. I am still a FAT forty-something woman who has been focused on the 'fat' roller coaster ride for the past decade, sometimes up, sometimes down, have been as close as 26 pounds from goal and over the past decade have gained and lost and gained and lost HUNDREDS of pounds! I wish I knew the Why of it but although I have a lot of theories I have no real answers.

For the Monday Project though I am choosing to look at the positives of my journey thus far. In 2009 I lost 43 pounds and kept them off. I discovered how much I love exercise and have found a wide variety of them that I have continued to this day. I crossed the finish line of a 5K, 12K and a 1/2 marathon and have my sights firmly planted on doing the full marathon this June. I made new friends through my weight loss efforts both on-line and in real life. I learned some new lessons along the way~the most important of which is that this is not a diet it is a whole new lifestyle and while it is hard it is important to remember which hard you want to choose. I CHOOSE the hard that makes me struggle to walk out of the kitchen on doughnut Thursdays, I choose the hard that makes me revert to my girl scout path "being prepared" by packing my lunch bag before I leave for the day and counting and journaling the points Versus the hard that hates what she sees in the mirror, the hard that makes walking up the stairs a struggle, the hard that doesn't love herself enough to put the fork down.

I am working on finding peace and love and acceptance of the skinny girl inside of me desperately trying to get out so that this go round in 2010 will not end in self sabatoge and a fear of success. I have some new plans in place to catch me when I'm falling and a renewed passion to enjoy this journey and so with every step and every squat, lunge and pushup I will fight the good fight and do the warrior dance!

I have shared some *gasp* before photos in my previous Monday Project post and look forward to sharing some after photos someday soon!

9 comments:

  1. Way to go! I love the positive outlook. You can do this and you ARE DOING this!!

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  2. wow - good luck with the marathon training! :) sounds like you acheived a lot in 2009 and 2010 will be bigger and better (as far as goals go...)

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  3. OK. THIS POST MADE ME CRY. You're so right about it being hard. But either way, it's hard! So you choose either "this" hard, or "that" hard! I really really love that. Really. You have inspired me! You have come so far in your 2009 and it's so awesome that you've reached such fabulous milestones along your journey!! I know you're going to kick that half's BUTT!! Thanks for taking us along for the journey!

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  4. It is HARD and that is just the way life is, isn't it? All the really good things take hard work and look at you, WORKING IT HARD. Good for you girl. I'm closer to forty than thirty (will be 38 in May) and like you, I would LOVE to be fit and fabulous ALL the way through my forties. Good luck to you as you strive to make this huge lifestyle change.

    Lisa of Shrinking Jeans

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  5. I love how you looked at the positive things and that is a lot of running. Great job.

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  6. Yep, it's HARD. But it's worth it. Congrats on going for a full marathon this year!

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  7. Hard work is well worth the rewards that we get from it! You have had some great rewards...all that running is awesome!! Way to go...You can do it!!

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  8. Those are some amazing achievements in 2009... congrats. :)

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  9. I am in awe of you! You ran a 5K, 10K, and half marathon last year? And you are planning to do a full marathon this year? Wow! That is so awesome! I can't wrap my head around a marathon yet. I guess it's more the training for a marathon that I just can't commit to. One day maybe. I did my first half marathon last October and it was such a fantastic experience. I'm planning on doing at least two this year. Keep up the hard work and you will continue to lose the weight.

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